Today --- 09 Dec 2009

Today should have been a very happy day…
Today should have been a day filled with joyous laughter…
Today we should have had a party at our house…
Today should have been a day filled with cookies, candies, party hats, colorful party banners and a birthday cake…
Today, a little boy should have been surrounded by all his loved ones and wrapped around the love of his parents (and his parents firmly wrapped around his little finger).
Today, a little boy should have been gleefully ripping apart the packages of his presents.
Today, a little boy should be hearing the ‘Happy Birthday’ song sang to him for the very first time.
Today, a little boy should be blowing out the single candle on his birthday cake.
Today, my baby boy Lucas should have turned 1 year old.

Instead of all the above, what do we have here today?

We have a dreadfully quiet house.
We have nothing to celebrate.
There is no ‘Happy Birthday’ to sing.
There is a mother typing away on her laptop with tears streaming down her face, her eyes puffy from crying and her heart hurting like crazy.

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To my beloved little boy, Lucas -

Happy 1st Birthday to you, Sweetheart.

I can't believe how quickly time flies,

And I can't imagine how I managed to get here without you by my side.

I want you to know that you are never far from my mind,

And I think about you and Chloe all the time.

I hope you are happy in Heaven,

And I hope you are thinking of me and missing me too.

Please know that Daddy and Mummy love you so,

And please believe that we'll be reunited sometime soon.

Happy Birthday, Lucas...

With all my love,

Mummy