WTF??!

A friend/ ex-colleague/ ex-client is due to deliver her baby girl today (probably right at this moment if I can recall the time correctly) by scheduled caesarean section. She had struggled a little with conception due to health issues, but she consulted a traditional Chinese practioner and fell pregnant successfully on her first attempt. Once she got pregnant, she had a smooth and non-eventful 9 months. My sis-in-law, who is due to deliver my niece in exactly one month's time, also had a very uneventful pregnancy. Both of them, as did the majority of the 'normal' pregnant female population, seem to breeze through the whole 9 months with nary a hair out of place.

So why am I 'blessed' with pregnancies that are like roller-coaster rides? I don't think I am doing anything differently from the other women - I practised abstinence once I found out I was pregnant, I am careful with what I eat and drink, I try not to move about unnecessarily, I sit or lie down whenever I have the chance, I don't lift/ carry heavy stuff, I take all my antenatal vitamins religiously...

I truly envy women who have normal pregnancies that last the whole 9 months, aside from the normal symtoms of course. With Lucas, things started to become 'abnormal' on Week 8 when I experienced heavy bleeding out of the blue. This bleeding subsided to spotting that persisted till Week 14 when I lost him. For the 6 months that I had Chloe, the pregnancy was totally a breeze, that is right until Week 24 when my bl**dy waterbag decided to break for no reason. Overnight, I went from the highs of being a soon-to-be mummy to the lows of a mother grieving for premature birth and eventual death of her baby. With my third pregnancy, I lost my 'little one' before I even had the chance to let any happiness sink in.

WTF??