I will be going back to working life next week after being away for exactly 1.5 years. This has been the MOST fruitful and rewarding 1.5 years of my life and I cannot believe I will be closing this chapter in a few day's time. I will no longer be able to declare myself as a 'homemaker' on those survey questionnaires. I will no longer be able to wake up at 8am and take the day leisurely at my own pace. I will no longer be able to spend all my time with my little sidekick beside me.
Much as I'd love to be a stay at home mom and spend time watching my little bun grow, I have to do my part for the family financially since Mark had been shouldering the burden and been the sole breadwinner for the past 18 months. Moreover, I know how important it is for us to get back on our feet where our finances are concerned because we have spent A LOT on my medical bills. I also want to start saving up for little bun so that we can provide the best for him. There's never going to be a win-win situation.. something's got to give. Moreover, if I ever plan to venture down the path of having another baby, we need to have a healthy savings for that.
I will be going back to my ex-company.. Yes, it is a miracle that my ex-boss is still so keen to have me back despite how I dropped the ball and left the job so suddenly. My ex-boss is a brave man. It is very flattering that he still hasn't given up on me and I hope I won't disappoint him (the keyword here is 'hope'. I have warned Mark not to be surprise to find me at home on a work day and me insisting that I will not leave the house without my little bun! LOL! Don't think he saw any humour in that though..). My ex-boss (soon to be future boss) had been very accommodating by allowing me to state my terms. I requested to work part time.. only on Tue, Wed and Thur so that I can spend 4 days every week with little bun.
So this is it... I will be starting work coming Tue. I have been a bag of emotions this week.. after a 1.5 years hiatus, I don't know where I stand now and if I will be able to hit the ground running. Will I be able to cope again with people's expectations, the stress, workload, office politics, client demands, long hours, conference calls and **gasp** travelling? Will I be able to be apart from my little bun for 9 long hours? (I am already devising ways which I can sneak back home during lunch time.. this will have to include travelling time to and fro, eating, expressing milk and most importantly, cuddle time with my little man).
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