Lucas's Song --- Can't Cry Hard Enough

A few days after we lost Lucas in 08, I heard this song playing on the radio and I broke down when I heard it cos it was so apt in describing how I felt right then.. I could clearly associate my feelings with the following lyrics:

I let go of you like

A child letting go of his kite
There it goes, up in the skies

There it goes, beyond the clouds

For no reason why...

I felt like a child who had accidently let go of his prized kite, and the child is standing alone in a big field all alone and looking forlornly at the kite as it drifted further and further away from his reach and sight... And the sentence 'for no reason why' tugged a chord in my heart because till today, I have no clue why we lost him... simply for no reason why..

I never told Mark about this song. A few months later when we were in the car and it started playing on the radio. Mark turned and told me that the song reminded him of Lucas.. and I was totally gobsmacked because it was such a coincidence.. Out of all the songs out there, we picked the same song that made us feel connected to Lucas.

From that moment on, it became Lucas's song.

** Lucas sweetie.. I hope you like it as much as we do.

Can't Cry Hard Enough
By Williams Brothers

I'm gonna live my life Like every day's the last Without a simple goodbye It all goes by so fast. And now that you're gone I can't cry hard enough No I can't cry hard enough For you to hear me now. Gonna open my eyes And see for the first time I let go of you like A child letting go of his kite, There it goes up in the sky There it goes beyond the clouds For no reason why I can't cry hard enough No, I can't cry hard enough For you to hear me now. There it goes up in the sky There it goes beyond the clouds For no reason why I can't cry hard enough No, I can't cry hard enough For you to hear me now.