Guardian Angel, Guardian Angel, Where Forth Art Thou??

I recently came across this old song by chance... of cos the reason why it only caught my attention is because of the title --- 'Angel'. I like the following part of the song best -

When I'm feeling weak
And my pain walks down a one way street
I look above
And I know I'll always be blessed with love
And as the feeling grows
She breathes flesh to my bones
And when love is dead
I'm loving angels instead

I guess my 'obsession' with angels isn't over yet... Sometimes I feel so vulnerable and alone, I feel like either I was born without a Guardian Angel to watch over me or that my Guardian Angel had forsaken me, but at other times, my Guardian Angel almost convinced me of his/ her presence.

I took a client out for lunch on Tue as she was leaving the company. We are around the same age, so we have always gotten on pretty well. Somewhere along the line, our conversation drifted to my miscarriages (she knew about both my miscarriages as we had meetings while I was pregnant), and she started asking me if I believed in Angels. I was like 'OMG...'. She then shared with me that she'd recently gone to see a clairvoyant who does 'Angel Channelled Reading and Healing', and during the hour long session, she could tell her things that happened in the past and with her family members, i.e. things that there was no way the clairvoyant could know. The clairvoyant explained that she was merely receiving the messages from my client's Angel (whom she said was surrounded by a blue aura) and repeating them back.

I am intrigued. I guess what I am dying to find out is where my Angel was when I needed him/ her at the most trying time of my life. I was (or rather, still am) feeling very 'betrayed' by my Guardian Angel. And I guess after I have 'forgiven' him/ her for abandoning me, I will need advice and reassurance that my Guardian Angel will protect my next baby.

I sit and wait
Does an angel contemplate my fate
And do they know
The places where we go
When we're grey and old
'cos I have been told
That salvation lets their wings unfold
So when I'm lying in my bed
Thoughts running through my head
And I feel the love is dead
I'm loving angels instead

And through it all she offers me protection
A lot of love and affection
Whether I'm right or wrong
And down the waterfall
Wherever it may take me
I know that life won't break me
When I come to call she won't forsake me
I'm loving angels instead

When I'm feeling weak
And my pain walks down a one way street
I look above
And I know I'll always be blessed with love
And as the feeling grows
She breathes flesh to my bones
And when love is dead
I'm loving angels instead

And through it all she offers me protection
A lot of love and affection
Whether I'm right or wrong
And down the waterfall
Wherever it may take me
I know that life won't break me
When I come to call she won't forsake me
I'm loving angels instead

And through it all she offers me protection
A lot of love and affection
Whether I'm right or wrong
And down the waterfall
Wherever it may take me
I know that life won't break me
When I come to call she won't forsake me
I'm loving angels instead