Something's been bothering me for a couple of weeks now, and it is becoming more intense as THE day draws closer. MOTHER'S DAY is in a few day's time, and I cannot help but wonder if I am entitled to this honour. Do I even qualify? I had dreams for both Lucas and Chloe, I did carry them in my womb (although for too short a time)... and I have loved/am loving/ always will love them with all my heart and soul. But is this enough?
I feel like a world class failure/ loser and seriously, I cannot hate myself more for not being able to do what any other normal woman can do so effortlessly. I cannot get pregnant without medical intervention, and I cannot even protect my babies even when they are inside my body.
If I can have one wish now, my wish would be to receive a card from Lucas and Chloe. Sadly, my wish will always remain as a unfulfilled dream.
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