It's been a super crazy week at work. Feeling helpless and breathless. Here's the current state of my life in 3 short sentences...

"At work, you think of the child you have left at home. At home, you think of the work you've left unfinished. Such a struggle is unleashed within yourself. Your heart is rent." - Golda Meir.

Little bun and his BFF

It never fails to warm my heart to see how gentle Hershey is with little bun. Sometimes her affections are a one-sided affair, but she certainly doesn't give up! I hope these 2 will continue to 'live in harmony'!!

Missing My Boys...

It feels soooooo wrong to go to bed without little bun tucked snugly into my side and letting his unqiue, sweet baby smell lull me to sleep. It also feels sooooo wrong to wake up in the morning without looking at his gummy grin.

Counting down the hours till I get back home to my husband and son. Missing my 2 boys like crazy!!!

(Mental note to self - No more business trips, no matter how short it is!!) 

Home Is Where The Heart Is

I don't quite know how it happened and what posessed me to agree to it (I guess I could've been on a high from chocolates)... I will be going away on my first business trip since starting work last month. I thought I'd be able to avoid travelling at least for the rest of this year until little bun is bigger, but little did I know that it'd happen less than 2 months after I start (part-time) work!! Ok, on my 2nd week back at work, I managed to wriggle my way out of a long haul (heaven forbid!!) trip, so maybe this is a compromise on my part.

It's only going to be a short 4 day trip.. was supposed to be 5 days but I opted to fly back on the night after the meeting ends. It's going to be a mad dash to the airport in rush hour Bangkok traffic. Although I will only arrive at midnight and get home at an ungodly hour where little bun will most definitely be asleep, I'd rather be at home than anywhere else.

I am planning to continue to express my milk, freeze it and bring it home with me. Admittedly, it's a rather ambitious plan on my part but I just cannot bear to toss the 'liquid gold' into the sewers!! I will be bringing a small ice box with numerous ice packs with me. I need luck.. lots of it!! Hopefully I can bring them back in good condition.

In the card that little bun gave to my mom, I traced his palm print on the card.. I quite like the idea of doing a palm and/ or foot print of little bun in all the future cards that he gives to his grandparents. It's a nice way to keep a record of his growth. In hindsight, I should have done it for him on a monthly basis from his first month onwards and keep it as a momento for myself. It's very simple really, all it requires is pencil and paper (plus someone to hold little bun and press his palm/foot onto  the paper)!

Little Bun is 7 Months Old!!

Yet another month had flown by and little bun is already 7 months old!! The past month felt like it's gone in a flash.. maybe it's because now that I have started working 3 days a week, time seems to pass quicker. 7 months ago, I carried a teeny-tiny newborn in my arms... now my teeny-tiny baby is a sturdy and active baby (and also very 'talkative'.. he can't talk yet but he sure can make hell a lot of loud babbling!!) who smiles at me every morning when he wakes up every morning, and who giggles hysterically when all I have to do is say 'hi' and smile at him.

Mark and I are soooo lucky that overall, little bun is a very happy, smiley and easy-going child. He is the ray of sunshine in our lives and what a pleasure it is to be in his company. Nowadays when Mark and I go out, it no longer feels 'right' when it's just the two of us. Although it can be quite cumbersome bringing little bun out with us everytime (because of all the stuff which we need to pack and lug around, e.g. the stroller, milk, diapers, wet wipes, dry tissue, hankies, extra sets of clothings, bibs, booties, toys, etc), we'd rather put up with the hassle than be without him. Mark and I also realized that we hardly get to hold hands anymore cos our hands are usually 'occupied'. One of us will be holding little bun while the other will be holding onto his diaper bag. Looking forward to when he is bigger and starts walking... it'd be so nice to hold his little hands as he toddles between us.

(For the record, 7 months on and still breastfeeding!!) 

I brought some work home (again) to complete and I had my trusty sidekick 'helping' me out. Unfortunately while I was busy taking these cute photos, little bun deleted some information on the slides which I had been working on!! I had to redo some parts but good thing it wasn't a lot.

Little bun: "Momma, your laptop is nom nom nom..."

Yum yum yum... I have tasty feeties!!

Mother's Day 2012

Celebrating my very first 'Mother's Day' as a 'real' mother.. I have waited too freaking long for this day. Waaaay too freaking long.

On this special day, I'm just going to relax and enjoy every single minute with little bun, and I know that my Angels are with me too. Finally, for the first time in many years, this Mother's Day is without pain and tears.

I sent Dr Anu a card earlier this week.. It's a 'thinking of you on Mother's Day' kind of card. I didn't write much, just a short and simple note that we are thinking of her and most importantly, thank her for giving me a reason to celebrate this year's Mother's Day. Just received a text message from her wishing me 'Happy Mother's Day'!

Off to write the card that I got for my mom before we go over to her place for dinner. I also got her a card on behalf of little bun. This will be the very first card she receives from little bun and I'm sure she'll be stoked!! She's as proud a Grandma as I am as a mom.

My precious and I hanging out at some coffee joint in town. Yes, I know he looks nothing like me and everything like his daddy.. (BOO!!).

Just look at that serious little expression on his face.. I love my little bun so much... **blissful sigh**.